*The Words We Dare Not Speak*(un-edited)

You say you speak the truth
You say I speak words of deceit
Do you want me to be dishonest?
You want me to insincere
I can see it in your eyes
I see nothing
No passion
No truth
And no lies
But when we kiss
It all melts away
At least I turn to mush
But I don’t know what you think
I keep reaching for you
But my fingers fall short
They pull back
Tight into a fist
And end up in places they don’t belong, sort of like me
You made me a new pair of gloves
They are made of sheetrock and wood
They cause me to bleed
But I don’t care
And I don’t even think about you
I want to reach and wipe the tears from your face
But my palms are too busy holding back my own tears
“I will let you get back to your movie.”
Can I get a translator?
Or a map to your mind
For what you say is not what you mean
And I can’t tell what you really want to state
I feel like nothing would me more appropriate then to yelp out in pain
I feel like ripping out my hair and bursting out into tears
But I just jot my heart onto paper
This bare space screams out to you
But your ears are congested by your mind
Desperate withered finger scrape at my face
And the salty tears cause these wounds to throb
Wounds that I have made and you have opened
I push people away without desire to
And I see my arms extend out
To shove you away
When I wish they would enclose you
And embrace you
Pull you nearer
To let me protect you
Shield you from all evils
But I never think about you
I don’t care
I also don’t sleep
I’m to busy worrying about you
I didn’t spend hours writing this
In hopes it would reach out to you
It would show you all the actions you can’t see
Show you that I’m two feet tall
And curled up in the darkest corner of my room
Fuck your damn doubt
Its killing me
And I don’t even think you see
For these are the words we dare not speak
For they could change ever thing
I don’t want to lose you
And I don’t want to leave
But if you turn your back there is nothing more that I can say
But goodbye
And just like the raven
I will paint your floor with my shadow nevermore