*The Words I Dare to Speak*(un-edited)

I though you were better then that
I though you cared
I though the words I spoke meant something to you
Apparently not
Well I hope these words sink in
I don’t need you
You are my problem
You are the reason I wasn’t happy
You lied and lied and lied
And you fucked me over and never thought twice
You thought I was just a voodoo doll
You could poke and prod for you own benefit
Now when I look into your eyes I see fire
I feel hatred
And when we kiss
All I taste is poison from someone else’s lips
I hate you
Every bone in my body hardness at the thought you
All my muscles tense up when I hear your name
And then you lie to me
You can’t even speak the words
I didn’t do that to you
You didn’t do what you can’t even say it
My fingers feel like ripping apart all that is you
You think you the best
You think you’re so smart
You thought I would never find out
Well fucking surprise
I knew all along
I could taste it
You are the scum of the earth
You will be found selling yourself on the streets
Or hanging out in bars trying to pick up drunken guys for a night of fun
You will be in adverting
Showing a 10 year old that losing his virginity is the only way to happiness
I hope that god will forgive you
I have
But I will never forget you
And what you have put me through
These are the words will I dare to speak
For they cant go unspoken
I didn’t lose you
You lost me, you lost god, and you lost life
And you wont find it anytime soon
But my heart is stronger
And I will never make the same mistake again
And as I turn back there is nothing left to say
But goodbye
And like the raven
I will cry a tear for you nevermore