*See*(un-edited)

Every thing blurry
Nothing ever clear
Red streaks
Cold blood
Pain is everywhere
Wish I was blind
So I didn’t have to see the little I do
Fuck these hands
They don’t help me see
Fuck the other senses
For they don’t get stronger to protect me
I can see clear
It hurts so much
And I can’t feel you
Never guided
Just ignored
Fuck the world
No one wants me
No one understands me
Fuck these eyes
Why can’t they work right
I hate this damn pain
Where do I go
Where do I turn
I wish I could just fall asleep
And wake up to see the world in focus
Who am I
This is all too much
How do I save myself, can I
I fucking hate this shit
And know one can see
That I never see clearly
And this blur is getting worse
And the red streaks are turning into a red tint
The pain is getting worse
Still I don’t see you
The tear I feel it
It runs down my face
And into my mouth
I spit it out
It’s sour
Nothing has changed
And I still can see