*Far From You*(un-edited)

As I twist my wrist
And tighten my fist
I hear my knuckles crack
Am I really going through this
I close my eyes and begin to pray
I lean back
Freefall, hoping someone will catch me
This grass is soft, and wet with dew
I rub the ground
Something is missing
There is an indention
The grass has been bent
I know what is missing
I have known for weeks now
I feel like crying
The ground becomes hard
This steal is so cold I can feel it stick to my body
I should be crying
These blank faces
They don’t know me
They can’t understand me
They fill their pockets at my expense
I should be screaming
No need for pills
This gas won’t do anything
I am all ready numb
My head is pounding
White lights cloud my vision
I should be yelling out your name
I hear the flesh ripping
I feel the scalpel
I hear my ribs breaking
I feel the blood dripping
I hear the latex and skin rubbing
I should be holding you
Why am I here
You are asleep, miles away
Your lips are meant to be with mine
Your dances of joy are few now
I need your love
I should be able to hear you voice
They can’t find it
They are confused
But I’m not surprised
You took it with you
The day you left
I should be breathing
Flat line